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Lenore’s Song

• 2007 SoundKILDA Music Video Festival Finalist
• 2007 iPod Film Festival Finalist
• 2007 Australian Cinematographers Society National Golden Tripod Winner
• 2006 ATOM Awards Finalist
• 2006 SunScreen Film Clip Festival Finalist

Over 16,000 digital photographs were taken in the making of this stop animation music video. The video was shot entirely on a Canon EOS 5D digital stills camera. The result is an intriguing and strange fairy tale where nothing is what it seems. Tale of life, death and the infinite. For the making of this video…

Directed by Tahnee McGuire
Produced by Matt Carter (Enchanter Productions)
Cinematography by Callan Green
Edited by Adam van Rooijen

You Are Expendable

Four Minute Wonder video clip made by Luke Gibbs using rotoscoping. No teddy bears were hurt in the production of this clip.

LYRICS

Spiked Soul

Here are the lyrics! Hope you like ‘em!

LENORE’S SONG

(Inspired by The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe)
Gently Gently I came rapping
Like the bird whose beak came tapping
Wanted mine and wanted yours
Both souls I seek to keep
Wondering Wondering If I’m intruding
Fear you old friend fear you so much
Thinking thinking if I should
Call upon you tonight
When I see you laughing with them
Have my secrets become jokes
When I see you lunching with them
Is my flesh the meat they poke?
Wanting Wanting to know if
You are my friend just so if
When my flesh is dead and rotting
You would help them end their plotting
Where Where where were you when I cried
Where Where Where were you when I died
Did you fight
Did you fight
Where where where were you
When I screamed my last
Where where where were you
I find you nesting at my chamber door
Along with them
Along with them.
Never nevermore
I’m your lost Lenore
I’m who you called a whore
When they came for me
Never nevermore
I’m your lost Lenore
A ghostly imprint upon your mind I bore
Gently Gently I came rapping
Wondering why you stand there gaping
When I stand here still alive
A thousand knives upon my back
Yes there are still some with your name
The name of you whom I still blame
Wondering wondering why you are
Shivering your face so white
Did you think that I should visit
Risen from the grave of lies
Am I just a ghost of conscience
That’s come haunting you tonight?
Where Where where were you when I cried
Where Where Where were you when I died
Did you fight
Did you fight
Where where where were you
When I screamed my last
Where where where were you
I find you nesting at my chamber door
Along with them
Along with them.
Gently gently I came rapping
Not in the shape you have me come in
Am I just an imagination
Is there still some salvation
See you backing backing slowly
The smile you wear in life just fading
I’m wondering why you clutch your left
Is that heart of yours still beating
Tis just a visit my old friend
U Wonder why I fear no more
Do I exist do I not
Am I a haunting of your mind
Where Where where were you when I cried
Where Where Where were you when I died
Did you fight
Did you fight
Where where where were you
When I screamed my last
Where where where were you
I find you nesting at my chamber door
Along with them
Along with them.
Never nevermore
I’m your lost Lenore
I’m who you called a whore
When they came for me
Never nevermore
I’m your lost Lenore
A ghostly imprint upon your mind I bore
So
Gently gently I came rapping
Tapping at your chamber door
Am I in your troubled mind
Ever ever more?

A PRAYER

(For the unseen and the unheard)

I wear a mask of smiles
And hope I last a mile
Pretended the gossips were bile
They were calling me vile
My dreams are dying embers
Ghosting upon the floor
I’m just a lost folklore
Is that forever more
But I know I’m a better dreamer
A better loner
And a better fighter
Somewhere out there
That maybe just so
Maybe
Someone will hear me
And know that I am
more than just me
So I reign here all alone
My hopes are carved in stone
My powers can move seas
But does anyone see me
I’m out of stories to tell
I locked my spirit in hell
I try to wait for you
My heart comes out in spews
know I’m a better dreamer
A better loner
And a better fighter
Not in this dream
That maybe just soMaybe

you will just hear me
come out of your darkness
and be my dark knight
till then I
sew sew sew
sew the broken parts in secret
as I cry cry cry
cry those crystal tears
I will sew sew sew sew my broken heart
As I dream of kisses from the heart
Dream dream dream dream of a land just somewhere
Where you are really there
As I hope hope hope hope for you to see me
For more than who I am
Don’t read me my last rites
Just Teach me how to fight
Claim me from the dead
Before I sink like lead
Don’t let my dreams all die
Don’t teach me how to lie
Take me away from here
Or from this atmosphere
Coz I know I’m a better dreamer
A better loner
And a better fighter
Somewhere out there
And maybe just so maybe
I will just get there
If you are willing
Just to play fair

VANDAL

You told me you’d be alone with me
Dine alone with me
Talk alone with me
Till the world ended
Coz I would tell you secrets that
Should have been taken down
Left alone in hell
When U left
I want to tell you that
my body it’s all that’s left
my mangled soul has cracked
there’s nothing left to break
So if you’re in a vandal’s mood
Go break something else
Don’t be nice to me
Then leave me hungry
I wish I wish I wish
I could tell a love story
I wish I wish I wish
You were in it
But tell me tell me
How the show should end
When the lead I know
Keeps disappearing…..
You told me you’d be alone with me
Dine alone with me
Talk alone with me
Till the world ended
But I know now the world is young
I know now the night is young
But when I trace your shadow
Even that’s a mirage
I want to tell you that
My body’s all that’s left
You ate my heart alive
Did you like it raw?
So if you are coming for seconds
Don’t bother coming here
I’ve nothing left to fear
Coz I’ve nothing left to lose.
You said you said your prayers
And you said them in my name
But went in your shadows
Where I couldn’t follow
Your Mind’s a maze
You said so yourself
That it was all for the good of me
The night you disappeared

SPILL THE BEANS

In your silence in your stealth cloak
I swim in it there’s no exit
Where’s the truth now tell me please
In your mysteries
In your journeys
Have you met someone just like me
Where am I now in you heart?
Spill it spill it spill the beans
Spill the beans for the us you see
Spill it spill it spill the beans
Spill the beans for the us you see
In my journeys I have traveled
far and wide never to be tied
tied to your soul I am now
In my silence I have traveled
it’s stifling darkness like a warm cloak
Where’s my truth now if you please
Spill (chorus)
Are we wanting
Are we thinking
Are we lying about the same thing
Are we wanting……..
Does it really matter?
What the real truth is to you?

A SILENT ME

I could battle crazy demons
And I drive like I’m from hell
Yet I would run away from how I feel
A million times I try to say
But would rather RUN AWAY
Than to tell you how I really feel
Could U love that silent me
Run away run away run away
That’s just me running in the wrong direction
Run away Run away run away
When I should be running straight to you
Run away Run away run away
Only wish you’d run and get me back
Run away run away run away
And I would run with you
And I would run with you
It’s a gamble worse than death
I do fear I read you wrong
Do you love me dear
Have I nothing to fear
Rather play Russian roulette
Than to know where your heart lay
A silent you is what I only see
But would you love a silent me?
Dance Dance Dance of truth
shall I say or shall I not
As I search search search for answers
Beyond the depths of your soul

TOO SUBLIMINAL

Am I too subliminal
So that you know I exist
Only in the back of your mind
Am I too transient for you
So that you know I exist
Only to disappear….in a fewÂ
Am I a thought postdated
So that you know I exist
Only in dark depths of your mind
Am I too foregone for you
So that you know I exist
But only in the caves
Of lost hearts
Am I too ghostly for you
So that you know I exist
But only in the back…
Of your eyes
Am I?
Am I?
Am I?
All of the above?
Am I to you
The warrior who went
And returned
In the night
Where ghosts whimper my name?
To you…only to you
Only to you
I will appear
But do you see me
For me?
Only to you
I will seek
But do you see me?
Do you see?

DANCE SO SLOWLY

(dedicated to Kiyoteru Okouchi and Hirofumi Shikagawa and the many others who are fatal victims of school bullying)
So stay don’t run away from me
Speak slowly
I’ll hide you away from all your hurt
So dance so slowly into me
So slowly
I’ll fall so slowly into you
And then somehow in the realm of right and wrong and all that’s bright and dark
If you want
I’ll meet you halfway there
And of course somewhere in the midst of dark and unclear confusions
I know we’ll find our way
Don’t cry don’t hide away from them
Stay with me
We’ll fight those who chose to never see
As I dance so slowly into you
Fall slowly
Will you walk so slowly into me
So stay don’t run away from this
Say it slowly
I’ll cover your hurt from all your worlds
So fall So slowly into me
In our magic
Those secrets we keep from our worlds
Sink with me
Sink alone
Will you run?
To my world
For awhile
hideaway…..

WANNA GET OUT

Should I go placidly
In my Silence
in the end we all walk alone
Hold my own peace
Find my own space
Sometimes the meek scream the loudest
Am I awake
Am I asleep
What man made world did I wake to
Am I judging
Have I been judged
What kind of cross have I died on
Coz I’ve lived and died in all kinds of worlds just before
Now I’m travelling round in circles in the form of you
Coz I’ve lived and died in all kinds of worlds just before
Now I wanna get out
Right now I wanna get out
I wanna get out of you

Should I sit here waiting
Sit here wanting
Something promised
But undelivered
Hold my own space
Sew my soul
And hope that you would hear me screaming
Am I awake
Am I asleep
Did I choose which world to wake to
Am I judging
Have I been judged
Can I chose which cross to die on
Cos I think I’ve waited long enough for you
I think I’ve waited long enough for you to realise
I’ve waited just quite long enough for you
Should you chose
Should you chose
Should you chose to be mine
While I sit hear wondering
Where we’re going
Should we have to get a compass
Is it just me
Wanting alone
And I am just of no consequence
Am I awake
Am I asleep
Which of these worlds treat me better
Am I judging
Have I been judged
Which crosses draw more blood then

YOU ARE EXPENDABLE

These Sleepy mornings
I’m curled like a cat
Unfold all my dreams
Lazy to find you
I’ll seek you later
When I’ve found myself
I’ll sort you later
After I sort myself
The rain is falling
Into your abyss
I’ll lie here waiting
But not for too long
I could be lying
Even to myself
Here in my stealth mode
It’s so hard to tell….
I’ve watched the world go by
Without you
I’ve watched my storms unfold
Without you
I guess my world goes on
You’re expendable
I’ll be seeking answers
Out of my lazy mode
I’ll be wanting more time
From the next better player
So note this my friend
If you’re wanting me
I’ll know what I want
It is not denial
Na………
Brainless Conclusion
Na…….
It’s not rocket science
Na…..
I’ll live without you
Or him..or her…or them and the world
You’re all expendable
These sleepy mornings
Too bored to find you
My brain cells migrate
I think through my ass
But not anymore
It’s all history
I’m turning awake
Be up and going
I won’t wait longer
Even for awhile
In case you’re wondering
I won’t be listening
 don’t knock on my door
Silence Lives here now
I’ve travelled afar
To where my dreams live

FIREFLIES

You fold little hearts for the dead
make them beat and pump just for you
watch you hold them dear feel the warmth
but you still don’t feel love

sweep away your clouds take your hands
ride away in moons that glow green
that’s your colour of fireflies
lights what you are made of

**Chorus

Don’t you cry I see you
I’ll breathe the fireflies
make them dance just for you
so I can catch your smile

Thousand paper cranes grant a wish’
So I fold them well for you too
If they don’t work well that’s alright
I’ll fly with you in dreams

Show you what is warmth in my land
so you know you’re not winter’s child
neverevermore the echoes
you will not walk alone

Chorus

This is my secret place
won’t u come stay with me
where we will not be seen
by those who know

In the morning when the lights die
we will take their wings and we will stitch
Stitch the wings together for our size
they’ll watch us fly away

Let them search on but not destroy
they can’t find the lights so they can’t cage
we will go away now and then
leave no shadows behind

Chorus

DISCONNECTED

Hello
the world like a goldfish bowl I look from outside right in
But I don’t feel part of you
Lovers hello, your warmth and your sweetness I think I know
I’m your forgotten folklore I know that’s why you don’t see me
I feel disconnected

Pull me back from my blues and hues from my eventide
Save me but do not ever brag I’m not your opus (x2)

Hello my hide feel so strong and so weak o u drown me protect me
But u don’t represent me
I feel disconnected
Hello my friend feel so formless so maybe I’ll tell your OUIJA
Maybe spell out HELP ME NOW
I feel disconnected

(Chorus)Pull me back from my blues and hues from my eventide
Save me but do not ever brag I’m not your opus (x2)

(Bridge)Drop a line to me
lend a little smile
put on Joker’s bells
take away my hell

Maybe maybe right now I would fell better better
Maybe I won’t fall off
Maybe I won’t doze off

Maybe right then your lullabies save me from using OUIJAs
And screaming myself deaf
Coz I’m disconnected

(Chorus)Pull me back from my blues and hues from my eventide
Save me but do not ever brag I’m not your opus (x2)
(Bridge)

** CODA….

LINER NOTES

LENORE’S SONG

Lenore’s reply letter to Edgar Allan Poe’s “The Raven”. Betrayal, Hurt, Bad Memories, wanting to see blood…BAD.

Particularly proud of the Sais and raven call.

A PRAYER

Lenore’s Song’s twin sister. A Prayer and Lenore’s Song was originally one long song. Born Congenital twins, they were promptly separated at birth because of personality differences. Like the Yin and Yang, Lenore was from a dark place and A Prayer is really about hope.

VANDAL

Started as a real sad song, then of course during production, Rob Agostini (producer) and I went a little insane. I know there was some coffee and a lot of angst involved.
The high hats were sais clicking against each other.

SPILL THE BEANS

People have mentioned. But yes I was watching my mom’s stash of old old Twilight Zone shows…the soundtrack is inspiring stuff.

A SILENT ME

I know I said I don’t write love stories. But there u go. The token love song in the album. Guess u never say never.

TOO SUBLIMINAL

Word play, those damn coke advertisements

DANCE SO SLOWLY

Read the story of Kiyoteru Okouchi. I guess I identified with him heaps when he died. I didn’t have the best years in school when I was 17-18. Residual anger from not being able to do anything about it then. The worse thing about being bullied is about not forgiving yourself…

WANNA GET OUT

Inspired by the poem, Disederata by Max Brenner.

DISEDERATA
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant, they, too, have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons. They are vexations of the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals; and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about; for in the face of all aridity and enchantment, it is perennial as grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars, you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham and drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.

YOU ARE EXPENDABLE

Need I say more? I remember a neighbour yelling this out to her husband/bf.
I thought it was brilliant.

FIREFLIES

For Sadako and her Thousand paper Cranes.

DISCONNECTED

For a boy in a suicide forum.

DISCOGRAPHY

2006 - Spiked Soul
2004 - Yunyu (EP)